“you let men ride over our heads; we went through fire and water, but you brought us out to abundance.” – psalm 66:12
this is my word of the year. have you heard of those? it’s the trendy, new way to do new year’s resolutions. (and yes, i realize february is almost over and i’m just now writing about mine. it’s fine. there are still 10 more months in the year.)
anyway, i have never made new year’s resolutions, except for when required by my elementary school teachers. i’m not a dreamer and when i set goals, i keep them tucked deep, deep down in my own heart. they’re secret because when i say them out loud i feel all kinds of pressure. it’s weird, i know. picking a word for the year felt much less stressful, and in 2017, i’ve decided to jump on the bandwagon.
2016 was a year of growth. it was so hard…and so good – that cliché that gets ever more true the further i find myself in adulthood. we celebrated our first child’s first birthday. we sold our first home and moved into a new one. we got pregnant. we lost that sweet baby. we got pregnant again. we went through marriage counseling. the moments of 2016 were full of some really hard conversations and some really life-giving ones. we celebrated and we grieved. hard. we learned a lot. our faith was tested and deepened, and as i reflected on all of that with my husband towards the end of last year, i realized one word kept clinging to my heart – abundance.
in the turbulence of life, one thing remains steady. the Lord is a God of abundance. he gives and he takes away, but as his children, we are never in a place of scarcity. i lived a lot of last year in scarcity. in not enough. in overwhelmed. but i trust that the Lord, in his abundant grace, used 2016 to deepen my faith, and this year i want to remember that when, not if, we go through fire and flood – the love of God, the grace of God, the mercy of God, the goodness of God, the faithfulness of God – all remain.
i’ll have a choice to make when fire and flood come. and this year, i want to choose to lift my head and fix my eyes on the God of abundance.